Senseless

Senseless

I have a hard time putting things into boxes.

When I move I have full garbage bags labeled DO NOT THROW AWAY.

I have as hard a time with mental boxes-->categories-->gestalts.

I can put dog in a small furry animal that barks box,

but what can I do with 16 yr old kills my 28 yr old Syrian student, Jamal?

28- Not old enough to have been his father, but at least a brother

an uncle a mentor a teacher if life made sense

If 57 choices were made that weren't

and 3 that were, weren't.

I hope he gets tried as an adult

because I'm trying to believe

children are too innocent to kill

or die.

God, it's true

I just realized

I have a stuffed camel called Jamal.

Clarence, my friend stationed in Iraq, sent me 3 yrs ago.

Now Clarence's son is in Iraq

training Iraqi soldiers

how not to get killed.

The son's name is Tony. He's 29.

The killer's name is Eric.

He is somebody's son,

probably somebody's brother,

maybe somebody's nephewunclecousin friend student

He's a child.

I have 2 stuffed camels, Jamal,

and one from Camel Rock Casino on Tesuque Pueblo,

where I met Clarence,

who taught me how to say I love you

in Tewa,

where I learned that I can understand

that I need to understand

what I don't understand

that I can't understand.

Is there a word for this plurality

in Tewa?

in English?
in Arabic?